I have not written in here in ages. Jesus. Its 5am, and I ache. Plus I miss Phil.
I really miss him at the moment, its worse because I'm not going to see him for days. :(
At the moment its stressful, I keep finding things wrong, but its my fault because I'm looking. I'm on edge. I'm scared. I feel sick. I need to move forward, I'm just stuck in the past.
Feel a bit, meh, the girl that was erased, no pictures of me, facebook, holiday, very few newly uploaded. And I find others, not of me, definately not of me. Jesus I'm fucked up.
Updates:
I drive.
College nearly done.
UCAS complete.
Decision made to be with Phil for exceedingly long time.
End of little rant. Dr Cox inspired. ha
funny.
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